Another Notch

Oh my.
I can feel it taking over me.
Over my mind, over my hands. I'm aching again. I need this. It needs me. How long will it last this time? Will I be a success? Or will it be just another attempt? No...I WILL do it this time. A dark room. Yes, that is what I need. A bottle of water and a pack of cigarettes. Yes, that sounds perfect. I go and grab a pencil. Not ink, no. I need the forgiveness of an eraser. I reach over and grab the book. All blank pages. Waiting for me. Crying out for me. Shh. I will soothe you. Let me rub my thoughts into you. Soon we will both be complete.